Fellow Christians: did I deserve to have this happen to me?

Yes, I will. The car could be either way, only God can tell you. Just trust him & try to leave the bad behind.Proper nutrition with heavy duty vitamins & minerals(not grocery & drug store) such as Pilgrims Pride Vits and Herbal medicins like St John's Wort(do not take for after two weeks of any psych meds) and Valerian Root should greatly help you. Poor nutrition can be the cause of your problems.Swansons Vitamins are a good source also.Suggest an alternative Doctor to run tests for what you are lacking in your system. A good reference book on it is : THE NEW NUTRITION by Dr. Michael Colgan of the Colgan Institute for info on vitamins & nutrients(California?) He may be on line,not sure though.